i was with my x for three years and after 6 months i was already picturing someoen else in bed when we were having sex. i used to look forward to her periods so I wouldnt have to fuck her. I was much happier waiting for her to go to work and then looking at porn and jerking off. I used to go out and eat a huge pizza, a tube of cookie dough , and a 6 pack of beer, so i would have another excuse to not have to fuck her. the weird thing is, she was hot as hell, guys would check her out ALL the time and she worshipped me, but all i could think of was getting out of the relationship and gfucking other *****, which i eventually did. now shes in italy with a new bf, and is applying to work for the UN. If i was to ever get married, she would have been, "The one". but i fucked it up so i didnt know if there was something wrong with me or there were others out there like me, lol. I miss her from time to time, like when a love song comes on, I change the channel and what not, but i dont miss the constant smothering.